Kyle's Anniversary

Today felt like a long time coming, especially since Easter came early. We
received some cards on Friday, thinking about you cards, remembering
cards, and it felt great, I love that my friends still remember Kyle and
think about us and our family especially during difficult times, though if
you asked me a couple years ago... I never could have imagined getting to
this place I am now...

The morning started off pretty much the same way they always do, me
oversleeping the alarm, creeping around trying to get ready before Sydney
and Peyton wake up and realize it's a school day... and it never works. I
may get dressed but that's as far as I get. Someone always wakes up
crabby.... one baby is singing the praises of Mr Sunshine, while the other
wants milk... and not just any milk... mama's milk.... So the day begins...

The last two years on March 24th I'd wake up early and watch my DVD's of
Kyle - a great friend of ours made us a special DVD with lots of pictures of
Kyle, next I'd break out the home videos.... and I'd cry lots, missing my son.
The babies would usually wake up and watch with me... cuz I'd watch
throughout the day....

Today was different, I actually went to work on Kyle's anniversary

I dropped Sydney and Peyton off at daycare, they had a pretty good
morning, didn't have to fight with them to get dressed for once but they
wanted to watch Diego, and they wanted yogurt, and they wanted to go
play with Kallie.. and the list grew the longer we were home...

I got to work and had some emails letting me know that my friends were
thinking about Kyle and us, a couple phone calls, and a visit at my desk -
everything always leads to tears eventually - we talk about the memories
we shared with Kyle, the things we all remember... it's good to do, even
when I cry, I'm so glad I have the memories, and I'm so glad Kyle isn't
forgotten.

Our friend who lives in Denver called to let us know she was thinking about
us all. We see them every time they come home to Sacramento/Davis, and
we talk occasionally throughout the rest of the year, but everyone is so
busy with careers and kids, that we don't get to talk enough. Even when
the world is so busy spinning, they never miss a chance to call to let us
know that their thinking about us, or remembering Kyle on his birthday or
his anniversary - I love that about them

As I sit here and write... the tears won't stop flowing... I miss him so much and my heart still aches... Somethings never change.

I need to go to sleep.... so here are a few pictures

Happy Easter

This morning the Easter Bunny left the girls some baskets with candy... and Bianca got a book she's been wanting.... and the babies got Easter PJ's.... We were hoping the Bunny would bring crocs for the girls... but I guess she never got around to it... ~lmao~

We met my sister, Tyler and his family - including his brother, rachelle and Cole (the boy from the other side of the tracks) **Lincoln** actually a good place to live.. I wanted to move there but Ben said no way.... it would be about 80 miles roundtrip a day... that is way to far.. and in heavy traffic.... instead I'm about ten miles from work.... and it only takes about ten minutes to drop the girls at daycare and get to work...

... back to meeting Ty's Family at the park in Newcastle... it was fun, the kids played on the swings and slides... They weren't to friendly with the other kids... or Cole... Sydney told a lil boy who kept following her down the slide and up the stairs...."No.. you GO Away" Okay there were others slides that he could have gone on... but he liked the same one she did.... I'm thinking I need to get these girls out on more playdates or something... some socialization like I take my dog too... ~lmaorotf~

We ate good food and cupcakes that Tia Amy made... Played some more, had an easter egg hunt... and Peyton scored most of the eggs again, played with bubbles, then ran around the park some more..... The girls were on the swings and starting to fall asleep, so we headed for home... Sydney took a nap, but Peyton managed to skip naps again today...

We got home and had another Easter egg hunt - then went over to Uncle Steven and Aunt Joans to play for a couple hours - we played basketball and wiffleball.....then home to BBQ, get in the bath, snuggle with mama while watching TV and now... all is quiet..... the babies are asleep in bed and Bianca is reading - last I checked she was on page 180 of her book - the book she got today....

Here are some pictures or check out the slideshow if you have some time on your hands. if you click the i on the slideshow you might get a description of sorts.. unless i got tired


Sydney wants to go higher
This slide is just our size
Sydney, Peyton and Cole looking for eggs

Sydney, Bianca, Peyton - pose with mouths full of chocolate

Laser Tag

Bianca and I met my sister at Force Laser Tag for some fun. We planned on playing a couple twenty minute games, but they were running a special - 4 hours of laser tag, pizza and drinks.... so we decided that sounded like a bargain.... Our first game really sucked.... I got the high score on our team, but our team got last place.... Our second game added two more girls (one 26 and one 11) and a boy (14)... we kicked butt... okay the boy got first place for the whole game... I got 5th overall... and our team still lost, but only by 2000 points.... We were improving.... The next game we got better and by the fifth game we had taken control of the war zone... We took first by 50000.... We had a game plan.... Each of us would hit the other bases, rotating out of our base - where we never let anyone take our base..... it was awesome... We did this abot four times before the other two teams joined together to overpower our Blue Team.... ~lmao~ Yes... they dominated that game.... We played a few more games after having some pizza and drinks and got home about 830 pm.... it was lots of fun and we were invited back to play an all night madness game... midnight to 7 am.... I'm not sure I could handle all that... and it's a lock in... where they lock you in... no one comes in or leaves til the morning...

The race is on...

We spent the afternoon at Grandma & Papa's house running a marathon - okay Sydney, Peyton and Donovan were racing.... Dominic was coloring... Bianca was tossing the football around with Daddy, Mommie, Papa and Tio Rudy. Tia Andria & Devin were taking it easy while Grandma helped with the BBQ. It was a great afternoon... that ended with an Easter Egg hunt. Mommie got no pictures of the hunt because she was busy walking around a crying Sydney - who only found four eggs.... more picture at flickR