Wednesday, September 03, 2014


Look at this sweet boy. I kissed him goodbye this morning and he stretched out. That's the life

Working 9 to 5

What a lie that is.  I work 24 hours a day with no days off.  That's what Motherhood is.

I took the day off from my job - the one that pays the bills and keeps the kids in cool clothes, shoes and sports.  I slept til 6:35.  Got up and made breakfast for the girls.  Kamren eats breakfast at his Big Boy School.  I fed the dogs, worked on the whole sit, down commands. I even took out the trash.  Took chicken out for dinner.  Made coffee and plans.

Dropped Kamren off at Miss Sandys Kiddie College at 8:00. Dropped Sydney and Peyton off at School at 8:08.  Dropped Bianca off at College around 8:30, went to the bank, and then starbucks...  I haven't been to starbucks in weeks... Got my Fall Drink...  Hot vanilla latte.  It was wonderful.  Everything about it was incredible...  Came home and took pictures of the pups, it's national dog day. didn't know they had that, but FaceBook says it.. so it is..

Blogged (not this part, finished my last post)  Soaked my sore muscles in the tub. I played soccer last night.. had a great game.  Hat trick for this mama, and I scored one in the other goal...  totally my fault...  I had two goals within 5 minutes of the game starting.. Just dribbled down and score...  it was brilliant...

ok, soaked in the salt, coconut oil mix that I got from Maria.   I love that stuff...  Shaved my legs and got dressed...  Cleaned the family room and went to Subway to get lunch for the girls.  Lucky me I got to work in the classroom today.  Woot Woot.  It was a great day at school.  The girl love subway, and I sat between Sydney and Peyton.  Paige sat across from us and Jack.  After lunch we played tetherball.   We played team tetherball.  2v2 and 3v3 and 4v4.  I think I prefer tetherball one on one.... So I played against my pal Armel and beat him down... haha...  He touched the ball twice.  LOL  I took pics of the girls playing too.  Then I got a picture of Peyton, Brennen and Sydney. He was Peytons crush last year...  But out of sight out of mind and he's in another class this year.

Classroom duty wasn't to bad.  I graded rocket math.. only I was doing the math in my head the first 15 sheets.. then the teacher showed me the answer key...  WOW, so much easier.. haha.  Then I replaced the old sheets with new sheets and made copies.. I hate copies.. I was an over achiever according to the teacher, as I completed all tasks with 45 minutes to spare... so i sat around doing not much of anything the last part of class...  Next time she said she would have more for me to do...  or i could help with things in the classroom.  Thats the kind of work I prefer.

We drove home, i got the kids doing homework, from here we pick up Kam and Bianca and off to practice.  SUV is loaded up.

Funerals come in 3's and bring back floods of memories

We lost our dear sweet friend Benie to cancer, she fought a courageous fight but in the end God wanted her more.  She is finally soaring free, feeling great and spending time with her daughter who left way to soon.

Martin also lost his mom Margarita, and this Friday we are going to the funeral for Tiara's dad Teeko. That makes 3.... actually 4 because my friends Meghann and Philip lost their baby girl Scout a couple months ago.

Funerals always get me thinking about the people I've lost in my life.  My grandparents, my son, and even my biological father.  Mostly I think of Kyle.  Everything he could have been, everything we missed out on, all the things we will never have with him.  I cry more than I should, I feel this empty void... it hurts.  And then I remember the smiles, the way his eyes danced when he looked at us.  The good times we shared are still only memories, they aren't as vivid as they once were.  I miss him, and still remember the ache in my arms when he left us.  He is my heart and i carry him everywhere with me and the way I have grown because of him, my heart loves more, I am compassionate, I am lost and found and believe.

Friday we went to Margarita's rosary, and it got me thinking...  we haven't seen any of these people (Martins Family - The Amezcua's) in years.  The last time was probably 5 or 6 years ago.  I do recall a time when we saw them more often, some more than others.  I remember Casino nights, Craps nights, Montecarlo nights (whatever you wanna call them)  Snowboarding, Murder Mysteries, Births and Birthdays...  and now deaths..  Everyone has grown up and now with their own families.  It was great to see old faces and new faces, if only it wasn't the death that brought everyone together.  It was good to hear old stories and memories of Margarita and Amezcua life.  The Funeral was on Saturday and afterwards everyone congregated at her Davis home one last time to eat and spend time together.

After we left and went back to grandma and papa's we (the Avila's) spent some quality time together, eating and hanging out, it felt good, like home, since we used to BBQ almost every weekend with them.  Now it's soccer games and more soccer games that make visits less frequent.  So it was really cool when Papa said we should all (13 of us) go to Leatherbys for ice cream.  Papa hardly likes to leave the house, and him being spontaneous is out of character...  No one can say no to ice cream.. or papa. haha.  The kids were stoked as were the adults.  Table for 13 please and everyone was on their best behavior....  Fun Times.